Sunday, April 26, 2009

thesis expenditure

spent a whooping $250.51 for my thesis...
not too bad...
hope it's a worthwhile spent
hoping for a not too bad crit session tmr...
lifting it up to You LORD! =D

Saturday, April 11, 2009

"Mad World"

really like this song performed by Adam Lambert,
American Idol Top 8.
He really brought out the meaning of the song very well.

"Mad World"

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me


Enjoy listening at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hik9OpRDN50&feature=related

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

blank, constipated, malfunctioned.

I thought it's gonna get easier
But it just got unimaginably harder
Questions that I don't know how to answer
And probably my brain capacity has reached my limit

tsuto also said it's tough, it's difficult.
Asked me to go and think and he'll help me think also.
But i'm really clueless.

Took a walk around the campus.
Walked from engin block to YIH.
Transferred money to Shareen.
Along the way, saw groups gathering to discuss projects
people playing guitar in rooms and in the outdoor
overheard a christian group singing
"Great is thy faithfulness".
Everything is still going on normally.
The earth is still round.
But i'm feeling that my world has turned upside down.
Wanted to look for a place to sit down and think.
But just carried on walking. Walked back to Engin
via the Raffles Hall way.
Went back to SDE and saw the sun setting.
Took a lift up to the highest viewing point in Engin block.
Greatly rewarded with a beautiful sunset.
took my mind off for a while and
just enjoyed the extraordinarily simple beauty.

Tried praying for peace and calming my mind.
Well, i'm not exactly flustered.
I'm just blank. Don't know how to think.
Back in studio now typing this.
Wondering how I should proceed on from here.
Had lunch at 5pm.
But my pants are still very loose even if belt
Wondered how many inches have i shed.
Will go home in a while and hopefully will clear my mind
in the still of the night.
On my bed.
And feeling Him closer at my side.
bah.

Monday, April 6, 2009

It's April!!....

6 days late...wanted to post something on April Fools' Day.
Wow.
Wow wow wow.
It's less than a month to my thesis submission.
Exciting and unnerving.
Uncertain of the outcome still.
But feeling much better and lighter now
as my design is progressing.
Really thank Him for that.
This "passion" journey is coming to an end,
it's seems like the time when i broke into cold sweat
and trembling in fear while praying is over.
the scourging, the rejection, the piercing of thorns...
all seemed to be over.
All i seemed to be experiencing recently and probably
in the next few weeks,
is perserverance.
To finish walking this journey to my "Calvary"
With people lending a support on my way there,
cheering me on.
Although i will still bound to fall once in a while
in the next 3 weeks.
I shall pick myself up readily.
Whatever the outcome, may i trust in Him
although while i'm writing,
i'm already filled with doubt.
Wondering if I can take it should my thesis not make the mark.
Surrendering.
Submission.
Offering everyday up.
Living everyday as if it is the last.
Putting my best put forward.
Stay focus.
Resist from facebooking and getting distracted.
Keep a regular healthy pace for my submission.
Breathe and take stock of life.
To not lose sight of what's truly important
and to not be tempted and fall into the hands of Satan.
St Michael the Archangel, please protect me.
And also hoping and praying for my fellow archi frens,
to keep their spirits up and jia you!

Had a great weekend i must say.
But feeling guilty at the end of it for not being
productive at my thesis work.
well, worry and regrets is of no use.
I'll just make it up by working harder and more efficiently
over the week.
Yes! Woots...almost 1am.
Gotta sleep and get to sch early tmr!
A brand new exciting week awaits.
Holy week.
Easter vigil @ Risen Christ. =D