Tired but hopeful

2hrs of sleep ytd
My heart nearly failed
Age is really catching up on me. Hah.
Interim crit went not so well and not so bad.
Also don't know what the tutors really want me to do.
Nevertheless, it's over for now. Though the bigger nightmare is not over.

Holy Week passed by in just one week...duh.
Never been as fulfilling as this year.
Fulfilled my Holy Week resolution to say rosary everyday.
Really calmed my mind before I hit the sack every night.
Holy Thurs, simple but meaningful Mass, turnout at SFA was surprisingly large.
Fr Michal as usual, very cute.
Thank God for blessing us with this zealous priest to our almost dying chuch. Thank you Fr David for "bringing" this great friend of yours here.
Good Friday Service. A unique presentation of the passion. A unique and spiritual experience.
Sang "Behold the Cross" for Veneration and this song really "nailed" me for this Holy Wk, even up till now.
Easter Vigil. A very profound and special experience. The darkness and the light. Death and resurrection. Though it's 3hrs long, it doesn't really felt like it. Loved the Gloria part.

Signing off with this song that really nailed me down. The lyrics are pretty melodrama and cinematic, but tt's precisely the point. It's awesome. =)

Behold the Cross (by Bob Hurd)
Behold the Cross on which was hung
Life's very Lord, God's only Son
Mary's own babe so cold and so still
Helpless before her on Calvary hill.

Nails in his hands, nails in his feet
A traitor kiss upon his cheek
And his pierced heart now broken in two
Love crucified for me and for you.

Eyes that won't see, ears that won't hear
Lips that deny the friend once so dear
Slowly he turns and captures your eye
Then passes on to Calvary to die.

Behold the Cross of Christ in our midst:
All those who bear his wounds in their flesh.
Suffering for crimes of mercy and peace,
Signs of the kingdom on Calvary street.

Almost snapped~~

~
I just want to run | just want to hide away |
Just want to leave | don't want to hear them say |
You're no good at this

Break me open | tear me down | ...
You can mould and shape me in your image
Breathe your life, you know I need it |
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself | Gaining it back again
Forging strength in weakness
All that I am | All that I meant to be
Melting in your hands

Break me open | tear me down | ...
You can mould and shape me in your image
Breathe your life, you know I need it |
Scars make us stronger for life

~ excerpt from "Scars" by Corrinne May

Words that struck me and comfort me
A song that can't get off my head
after hearing it in "The Leap Years"
Struggling to meet deadlines and
cope with my endless thoughts and commitments.
Woke up one morning feeling an intense pain in my head.
Thought i was going to snap.
Turned out to be heatiness and fever coming my way.
Couldn't concentrate, feeling all distress and lousy,
trying to finish my work last minute.
Skipped school to skip presentation and studio.
Felt even worse. Disappointed with myself.
Penitential Service saved me and comforted me.
And reminded me (by Moli), that we're all not perfect and mighty.
Have not been communicating with Him well.
Repercussion of communication breakdown.
Just felt so vulnerable suddenly and
I really needed a check on my coping stance/ability.
New life awaits...
or rather same old life continues but with new perspectives.

A fulfilling retreat...

29th Feb - 1 Mar Bridging Lights Core Team Retreat

Walking up the slope of Jln Merbok at 8pm.
The noise of the traffic and of the city life disappeared behind me as I approach the Canossian Convent retreat centre. It's really literally a getaway for a night, to be surrounded by mostly forested area and a view out to Bt Batok and Bt Timah Hill. The strong breeze was unceasing. Shiokness.
The River of Life. Took us till about 1.30am to finish. It's really worthwhile as we get to know each other better and had very heartfelt sharing. 2.30am lights out.(after a few moments of interrogation from Joachim) Most exciting episode before we sleep...the police were combing the forested area for the WANTED guy. It's quite a sight.

Day 2. Drizzle. The hills were shrouded with clouds. How nice! Wish i could stay 1 more day.
Enaegram and acknowledging our different gifts from the Holy Spirit. Really discovered about my inner self much deeply and came to some great realization and how i could move on from there. Also got to know my core team members way of working and their gifts. Way to go! I'm sure this short retreat is not gonna be put to waste.

HAPPY 21st Birthday to Jeremy!

Semester break came to an end on 2nd Mar 08. Another 1mths plus of my undergraduate education before I embark on another year of postgraduate Masters. Milestones, memories, hurdles, prospects, embarkation, departure, reflections...