Friday, February 26, 2010

am I really called to all these?

can't wait to get employed now...
working hard on my portfolio
seriously, without a reasonable source of income,
life can be quite miserable at times.
wrecked my brain and heart to send more money to Jay-R
the burden is getting heavier.
But somehow, He always let me see some light at the end of the tunnel.
Not a blackhole.

Eyes were very dry and tired.
So humid yesterday night.
Mission trip...time running out.
Young Adults Cell Group...1st session next week...got to plan.
Music Ministry...still needed around to guide them...
Choir...recruitment drive and easter vigil...
Church bulletin...yay...!
Fr John is pretty responsive and receptive about the new design format.
Small things accomplished along the way
But still many on hand to complete

Is this my mission as a Christian?
To live to Eucharist and to "break" myself and share with others.
My time, my resources, my talents, my commitment.
And someone shared during my Taize trip,
in order to serve, you have to be ready to break your heart.
Very true, heartaches are common.
And sometimes when I can't contain the pain anymore,
I let out with a cry...and my end up hurting other people as well.
So I guess I really need to pray better and harder,
for Him to help to take away the pain,
so that I may not scream and whine at others.

Lord, be my strength, be my healer.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

it's 1.55am...

Seldom blog at this time...
but somehow just had the feel at this moment.
I love the smell of wet grass after a rain
and this smell...the scent of nature..
lingered on through the still of the night
the cool misty breeze...
And my moist hair..
just came back from Esplanade catching a a play
with John and Sarah
and a mini-catchup at Macs
followed by a $24 cab ride home at 1am.
today's train ride in the evening to Esplanade was unique.
It's the day of pregnant ladies.
One sat beside me throughout the ride.
Then came another one at Tanjong pagar.
Someone wanted to give up the seat.
But she said she's getting off the next stop.
Then came another one at Raffles Place.
And I got up. Offered her the seat.
And I got off at City Hall.
3 pregnant ladies encountered within 35mins.
Seems like Singapore's fertility rate has some hope?

just random blogging...
while waiting for my hair to dry...
A busy weekend awaits.
But kinda exciting. =)