Sunday, April 15, 2012

It's April...

Same old saying,
"Time flies".
Overdue Lent/Easter reflection
Overdue retreat sharing/postings
Proscrastination and Distractions
Feels a bit out of control
especially with recent chain of events
of joy and of sorrows
of laughter and of tears
with fleeting hearts at moments
and down with heartaches other times
Roller coaster ride indeed
with Jesus sitting by my side
I scream
I laugh
I cry
I lament
I give praise
I thank you
I want to embrace you
and seek refuge
Can I be in my cave?
Or must I be "dead" so that you can call out,
"Lazarus, come out of your cave!"
Why me?
Why not?
Must I?
It's your choice.
Can I not choose?
But that's the gift from God.
I can't wait to get to the end of this ride.
Will Patience do the trick?
Head spins
Mind entangles
Heart wrenches
Not again.
Taking a deep breath
the breath of life which God gives
reminding me of who I am again
A child of God
Who is being loved by Him
even when the world does not understand
Forgive me Lord
For I knew not what I'm doing
And you have redeemed me by your flesh and blood
I need to break through
I need to see beyond my suffering
So many hearts out there hungering for You
And we are your instrument.
Focused mind
Peace in the heart
Love through my words and actions
Uphill tasks
only made possible through prayers
and it shall be...