Sunday, November 4, 2012

Post Confirmation Camp Reflection

My first full conf camp
Finally a "mission" that I've longed for have been accomplished
I've fought the good fight
Am truly touched, inspired and empowered by this camp
The experience, the friendships forged, communities formed,
relationship deepened and a renewal of relationship with Christ.
Drawn closer to Him
Touched by the Holy Spirit
Inspired and Enlightened by Wisdom
I was utterly unprepared
Going through the motions of spiritual preparation
He was so generous and He provided, abundantly.
His grace is sufficient.
Truly. And so undeserving I felt at times.
Prayed for a humble servant heart,
To be an instrument for Him during the camp.

Throughout the P&W sessions, I constantly felt a sense of heaviness and burden.
pressing on me and I felt so helpless but to keep praying and praying...for the confirmands.
I felt their brokenness, their pain, hurts, rejections, struggles, loneliness etc.
I wept with them.
These common tears shed truly helped us to open up to one another,
and most importantly to God.
We are all in this together.
Sinful and sorrowful at times,
Constantly seeking for healing and forgiveness.

I thank and praise God for this wonderful team of facils, p&w leaders and organising team.
Am so proud and heartened that we are able to run a Confirmation camp so successfully
For the first time, finally
After 5 years of labour and sowing.
Fr David (our founder), must really be smiling in heaven and like what Lillian shared on Friday, he has been praying for us. Thank you Fr.

And finally, my wish of really being on the ground to journey with the youths have been fulfilled too, esp through the 1-to-1 session.
And God, you are really funny.
You sent me all the really "tough cases" for me huh.
But thank you, if only you don't think so highly of me. =P
It is a challenge.
Sharing the burdens, the hurt, the brokenness by being a listening ear and a consoling heart = need a lot of strength, wisdom and prayer.

But really, this camp have given me a renewed strength to serve.
A stronger sense of mission, purpose and empowerment.
And I thank the confirmands for this experience.

I don't care whether it's just a moment of spiritual high,
but I'll just let it burn as strongly and as long as it can,
and inflame the rest along the way and let the fire go on.
Pass it on!

Now...looking forward to a wind-down / relaxing trip to Bali to further rejuvenate and recharge and be back to chiong till the end of the year!