better...

Dear Jesus,

Thank you for your amazing healing powers.

I felt so much better today, with the help of a short devotion at my work desk this morning.

Was able to maintain my cool, felt more at peace with my counterpart.

Perhaps today's work not as demanding/taxing.

Still, thank you.

I continue to pray to maintain and better this condition.

Perhaps my friends are praying for me as well. =)

Good night.

Yours,

Mike.

PS: Thank you St Michael toO!

why is it so hard?...

Dear Jesus,

I'm so frustrated and disheartened...

I just want to quickly let if off somewhere and thought of writing here...

it's been almost a week since i write to you on my diary.

Just when I thought my lenten resolution has been going well so far,

at least up till this evening.

Been able to reach work earlier and do a short devotion before the start of the hustle & bustle.

Enjoyed praying for friends on the intention list I have.

As I prayed those intentions, it helps remind me of what I need to do as well.

Patience...alongside with love.

Very challenging.

And the snapping point just came this evening so sudden,

that I couldn't handle it in time.

And I fell.

Quick and hard.

Swallowed up by angst and resentment.

Mind and soul in turmoil and un-peace.

Came back and straight away head out to run,

in order to stick to my training plan to pass IPPT.

Managed to clear my head a bit while running.

But doesn't seemed to solve everything.

I felt defeated and I just gave in to temptations.

Tried so hard to image Christ and draw close to Him,

and one slip, I lose grip of His hands again.

I know I will and should pick myself up again,

and by His grace, I'll move on and overcome another hurdle that awaits me again...

I know I'll hit another wall again, or trip.

The holier I want to be, the more the evil will want to deal with me.

St Michael, my patron saint, please give me a stronger armour.

And yes, why am i so frustrated?

I just feel injustice when someone is making things difficult for other people,

trying to solve problems or make things perfect at the expense of other people's welfare.

I feel the agony and suffering of slaves in Egypt 2000 years ago.

It's totally not a good feeling to be slave-driven.

And I feel sad for the person who is also slave-driving himself.

We work hard to the best of our ability, but not over-work and compromise your family life, your health and others' life too.

I can't reconcile with all these.

Jesus, please guide me in my thoughts and enlighten me.

thank you for hearing me out.

I love you and I miss you.

Yearning for your comforting touch and embrace once again.

Yours,

Mike.